The fight of “I shouldn’t eat that, it will sabotage my last workout.”
Do you ever feel like you are in a cycle of fighting cravings to eat unhealthy foods that you know will sabotage your last workout or healthy streak? And somehow the more you deny yourself of it, the more you have to have it. You then convince yourself that “this one-time won’t kill me” or “I‘m saving calories from not being out drinking right now” and you give in. The impulse takes over which causes you to eat all your cravings (and feelings!) at once.
So think of this! What if you get quiet at the moment when your desires come full force and really ask yourself, who wants this food right now? Is it YOU or is it your MIND? Is it truly you who wants to nourish your body with the most nutrient-dense and colorful foods, OR is it a hidden, sneaky voice within you, who wants to sabotage and deconstruct your motivation and progress towards a healthier life.
I am not saying there is anything wrong with eating ice cream, cookies, or whatever “unhealthy” food it is that you’re craving to eat. My life is about balance! And when I want a cookie, trust me, I try my best to mindfully eat one and not go into guilt around it. BUT if I find myself in a deeper cycle, one that seems to be taking the main role in my life, it becomes beneficial to take a look at what is going on within me. It is important to be able to distinguish the two voices, accept and embrace our darkness, and tune to our true self. Then we can take a step towards breaking this conditioned, unhealthy craving pattern. 🙂
THE ALTER EGO
We all have darkness created from conditioning in childhood and early adolescence. It is what makes us human. That darkness is our “alter ego” who seems to ruin everything. The side of us that we want to keep under wraps. A fog of illusion that creates stories, tricks us into thinking certain things and acts out of fear. Our darkness makes decisions for us while stripping us to make conscious choices such as what foods we will eat. Our darkness has us waste our energy on bad habits and keeps us away from living to our fullest potential.
KNOW WHO’S TALKING
Our minds are constantly active all day long with shadow, fear-based thoughts, we probably don’t even realize when we’re thinking them. They are the negative, judgemental and critical thoughts that we think. For example, have you ever looked in the mirror and thought something unkind? Well, that was your darkness. Have you ever walked by someone on the street and judged their outfit or weight? That was also your darkness.
Distinguishing between a loving, high vibe thought and darkness thought is not always as easy as it may seem, and will not necessarily solve all your problems overnight. It may take years for you to be able to separate the darkness within and yourself. But, for a first step, just awareness alone is key! Just to know there is another voice within that is one other than your highest self, can help lead us to make more conscious decisions when we feel certain cravings coming on 🙂
So work on yourself and your inner fight, and don’t let the negativity win.